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At kimmers-somethingtosay.com, we are dedicated to sharing our personal growth journey and advocating for disability awareness and support. Join us as we explore the power of poetry and personal stories in inspiring others on their path to recovery and healing.
Kimmer
May 30, 2024
Hello there. A lot can change in a week or so. I am feeling so much better, thanks to everyone that reached out to me, you are playing a major part in my recovery - so thank you! No, I still am having drastic pain, but my medical team and I are working on it. It just feels like it's taking so long, but I guess it's really not. I have several appointments coming up. I had a good session with my therapist, Nicole, and somethings came out that I will be working on. But right now, I'm feeling rather optimistic about my mental health and my strength to work hard and to move forward.
Kimmer
May 22, 2024
The past few days I have been thinking about suicide. I will do anything to end my physical pain. Saying that, I chose to fight it! Even though the pain is unbearable, I will not kill myself, today I am doing everything in my power to help ease it. I have talked to people about my suicidal ideations and seeking help through my local VA. and from my peers. I have talked to the surgeon - yes, surgery is in my forecast. I have an appointment tomorrow with my pain doctor. It seems like forever in between my appointments, but they are tending to my needs. I would like to let you know, no matter what you are going through, hang on! Suicide is not your friend! Suicide is final. If you ever find yourself thinking about suicide as a way out, don't! Reach out! Seek professional medical help. Call 911. Call 988. Please reach out - YOU MATTER!
Original Poetry
Our original poetry is a reflection of our personal growth, advocacy, and encouragement. Through the power of words, we aim to uplift and inspire others as they navigate their own journeys to recovery. Each poem is a testament to resilience, hope, and the human spirit's ability to overcome challenges.
By My Own Hands
Written by: Kim Gwinner
28 May 24
By My Own Hands
By my own hands I wanted to die.
Ready to say goodbye.
What exactly does that mean?
It was planned, not unforeseen.
But since it was planned.
I could save myself beforehand.
It took strength and courage to stop that thought.
I was severely distraught.
But I was able to reach out.
Before I could checkout.
I'm thankful that I was able.
Because I was so unstable.
Suicide is final - there's no coming back.
On myself that's the most evil attack.
How could I disregard my life so?
I had become my own foe.
I'm still struggling but that's life.
Yes, I'm feeling my strife.
I'm up for this challenge, I am.
This is my life's plan.
I will become strong.
And once again feel as if I belong.
But where to start - I need to know.
Where's my shield, my ammo?
It's inside, I need to dust it off.
And get ready for the playoff.
No, this is not a game.
I am worthy, I have a name.
I am Kimmer!
I possess more than just a shimmer.
I can be what I want to be.
Just watch - you'll see.
By my own hands I will heal.
That's what I truly feel.
I do have what it takes!
No matter how much my mind and body aches.
A Shimmer Of HOPE
Written by: Kim Gwinner
21 May 24
It feels as though I'm losing this battle.
I'm not looking forward to listening to any more psychobabble.
I am so close to just giving up.
Yes, indeed, running over - is my cup.
You may ask then why am I writing this?
Sounds like I'm already in my final abyss.
But there is something else down deep.
Something that has held on, something I can keep.
It's a shimmer of HOPE.
That I will be able to continue to cope.
And as long as I can keep this feeling.
I will overcome what I am currently dealing.
At least that is what I'm saying to myself.
Could it be from a word form you or (Nicole) my VA elf?
I do feel like I've used my last lifeline.
But yet, here I am still trying to climb.
From this dark, lonely, and fatal place.
Somewhere, & somehow, I need to leave it apace!
But still, I must understand and learn.
Because there is a reason for me to be concerned.
I have thought of all my ways to end my life.
But I just can't give up, not during this fight!
I must continue going forward.
I'm being honest and straightforward.
This is so unlike me.
The thought of suicide won't let me be.
It would be so easy to pick up the bottle.
Not to care, letting go of everything - full throttle.
But that shimmer of HOPE comes to surface again.
It so desperately wants to be my friend.
She hasn't steered me wrong as of yet.
Not once since she and I first met.
Can I believe her this time?
While in my deepest, darkest grime?
I know that I need help.
It's just too hard doing it by myself.
I have reached out for help, yes, I did.
And I still am - I can't fib.
Is it as urgent as it was?
I'm still here, and mostly because.
That shimmer of HOPE.
It is keeping my life afloat.
I can't give up - not this time.
Because within me I still find.
A willingness to save a life, this time my own.
And keeping this feeling within my grasp and atone.
And with your help and kindness, I can never be alone.
And with grace - on this earth I will continue to roam.
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